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Faith Works 1-16-21

Faith Works 1-16-21

Jeff Gill

Curates and curators and "cure of souls"
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For parish clergy, "curate" is a term you don't hear all that often anymore, though it used to be common.

It's roughly analagous to associate pastor in today's world, but it wasn't quite that in England of former days or even in much of North America a century ago. In many occasions, the rector or what we might call "senior pastor" often didn't show up more than once a year or even less (long story), and the person who served in their place, vicariously if you will, was the vicar, or often the curate. So the title is somewhat junior but the reality was often the one pastor many people ever knew.

And in large churches, the rector or canon in charge had a vast array of civil and practical responsibilities, so the ministerial work really was done by curates there, too. It makes sense when you look at the Latin roots of title, from "cura" or "care": the curate saw to the "cure of souls," or "the care of" them. The curate is the one who cares, directly and personally, for the well-being of those in the community.

And you can likely hear the echo of the origin of the term "curator" which we associate today with museums and institutions of preservation and learning. One of my best friends is a curator of archaeology for the state; his work is to care for the materials in the archives and collections and museum displays, to care for the sites and museums themselves, and to care for the state of our knowledge and understanding of the subject matter that's his responsibility, of the prehistoric & early historic past of Ohio. A curator cares, in this case for a great many things, but primary they care for the state of our dialogue with the past into the present. They curate materials but more importantly a conversation that's ongoing.

This all may seem a long way from the immediate concerns of the past few weeks, and our current situation as a national community, but it's one part of where I see us and am thinking as we look for our paths forward. Because one thing curators and curates alike think about are "where are we, and how did we get here?" My wife's professional background, and some work we've gotten to do on and off over the last thirty years, has to do with the evaluation and layout of things like museums and visitor centers, and we've actually helped design and revamp such facilities in this state and surrounding ones. One of the very hardest lessons we've learned and tried to teach is that it is in fact true that "less is more." A museum display that's jammed full of everything is a terrible teaching tool: a few items, well labeled and presented, are going to communicate the best, and the more you pile up, the faster people tend to just glance and walk on by.

So for a curator, you have perhaps vast collections and a sincere desire to put it all on display if you could, but in your "care of communication" and to cure the lack of knowledge, your responsibility is to select the right items at the right time, and share them in the best way. You curate in preservation what's in the back room, and you curate in presentation what's on public view, because what you really curate is the dialogue between past and present.

A curate, and any minister responsible for the "cure of souls," has many things weighing on them as they pray for their parish, and then they rise to look at the hours in a day. Each of us in ministry wants to do more than we can, and has to make choices. Like a museum curator, there are those who know our storerooms and collections of concerns who would make different choices than we do, and there's always someone to say "it ALL should be out there" but we know that's not an effective path. Curates, like curators, have to make choices, selections, decision.

Where I'm going with this, in part, is that social media has short circuited much curatorial work. Everything is available to everyone. Does that help dialogue and understanding? You tell me. I plan to stick with this subject a few weeks, but the fact of the matter is that we need curators and curates and choices more than ever. Blessings with you through the week ahead, and I'll have more to say.

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he's done a fair amount of curatorial work in his time on both sides of this discussion. Tell him how you make choices about what to see, share, and understand at knapsack77@gmail.com, or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

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[This just clips off the opening few paras and offers up a new lead . . . making the whole just a touch shorter.]

Faith Works 1-9-21 second draft

Jeff Gill

Lord, grant us peace

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While journalism is the "first draft of history," which probably makes column writing the "scribbled notes of the compromised second draft," there's such a thing as too soon. Too soon for my temper, too soon from my pastoral reflexes, too soon to work into specific preaching responses out of the general story as we have it so far.

What I find fascinating is how, as I turn to the New Testament writings that are my primary guide for "how should we then live," I note that Jesus takes relatively little note of the political leaders of his day. We all know "Render unto Caesar the things that are Caesar's, and unto God the things that are God's" showing it wasn't that Jesus wasn't aware of Julius or Augustus, carved on the coinage as they were. Herod, the Greater and his son Herod Antipas each have a role to play in the Gospel story.

But Jesus doesn't spend much or really any time preaching against them and their policies. He does address the abuses in and stemming from the Temple authorities, including making reference to the tax collectors, all of whom were seen as enemy collaborators, if you will. Jewish tools in the hands of the Romans, or those who used Roman power for their own ends as we see in the events of Passion week with the death of Jesus.

Still, there's a political context of a very particular sort inherent in the whole arc of the Gospels. But it's not politics as we tend to frame them. Where we see the world of faith in resistance to the world of power and privilege is most clear when the latter attempts to make claims over and above those of the eternal and everlasting.

An example at the outset: everyone would have known in Jesus's day about how Herod the Great, in his desperation to keep and control absolute power in Judea, killed not one but three of his sons. Augustus Caesar himself, the emperor who kept Herod on his throne as a distant subjected ruler, is said to have observed it was better to be Herod's pig than his son. (The quip is even more ironic in Greek, actually, with the words for pig and son sounding similar.)

So while Herod killed his sons to keep power for himself in Jerusalem, God sends a Son to offer the power of grace and love to work in the world. That would have been a parallel easily heard in that world whether you spoke Greek, Hebrew, or some barbaric outland tongue. A different approach to power.

Then there's the Prince of Peace. Of course, I'm talking about Augustus Caesar. Wait, you didn't think of him first? That's a part of what the victory of Christmas is all about: that we remember Jesus, not Caesar as "Prince of Peace."

Because for a ruler of Rome, that was a goal and aspiration: to be known as the source and vessel of the Pax Romana, along with the titles that being descended from Julius Caesar already got you, honorifics like "King of Kings," "Savior of the World," and yes, "Son of God." The Divine Julius was hailed after his 44 BC death in the Roman Senate at the hands of his peers, when a comet crossed the sky and his adopted son Octavian, soon to be renamed Augustus, declared that his father had been assumed into the heavens just as he had been adopted into the Caesar family. And if your father is divine, then it only stands to reason that you can be called "Son of God."

But what Augustus really craved was the acclamation of a now cowed Senate as "Prince of Peace." While some provincial inscriptions called him that, it's not clear the Roman Senate ever did.

We do, though. Well, not him. But we have just finished a season of adjusting our political and civic and cosmic understandings about whom God has sent, and for what reason. And many of us are still singing about a Prince of Peace who is not in any earthly palace, or buried in any royal tomb.

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he's still in Christmas mode. Tell him about your Christmastide thoughts at knapsack77@gmail.com or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

Notes from my Knapsack 1-21-21

Notes from my Knapsack 1-21-21

Jeff Gill

Parking in the garage

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So last month I did something that I hadn't done since last spring. I put my car in the garage.

Starting at the end of March, I began to bring boxes and items back from Indiana as my siblings & I, under our sister's magisterial direction, broke down and took apart the house our father helped build in 1963, which we needed to sell for our mother's sake after his death. But my basement was already "full" of much deferred decision making from years of camp directing and past book collecting and file accumulation, to the point of ridiculousness. Which meant it piled up in the garage, and my car went out into the drive in April.

While there was some brutal culling and Goodwilling and trashing (Goodwill & similar groups had early last spring reached saturation as much of middle America spent the pandemic doing their own house cleaning) on the Hoosier end, much still came home. Dad effectively added onto our childhood home twice, and it had about the square footage of all three of us kids's homes combined . . . and had most of the contents of my mother's childhood home stuffed into it from Kansas, Illinois (largely unsorted from its arrival in the early 1980s after Grandma's death).

All of which meant there were boxfuls and piles which just got carried home for more leisurely sifting than we could afford to do on our stolen long weekends back in northwest Indiana. We managed a sort-of outdoor memorial service for Dad there in July, then a big push in August and it went on the market, selling the next month.

But in August I also resigned from my full-time position in ministry, as it has become necessary for one or both of us to make frequent trips to Indianapolis to care for my wife's elderly father. Her mother passed five years ago, he lives alone in a house with many stairs, a home he will not leave, and the challenges have slowly but steadily increased: with COVID taking that all to a peak of complication, which we relieved by me stopping with parish ministry. And that resignation meant seventeen more tubs worth of books & papers coming home to the garage.

If you're following the math & geometry, that means I have since the end of August disposed of one vehicle's worth of volume of boxes, bins, and papers, plus an additional seventeen tubs worth, and in fact a bit more because there is now more room to turn around downstairs than there was a year ago, but everything is out of the garage. Call it a car and a half's worth. And I know I'm not done.

What's made this even more interesting is the archaeological process of delving into the 1920s of my maternal grandparents, the 1940s & 50s of my father & mother's young lives, their early marriage & home building, and of course the path of my own life, camp by camp and church by church, picking up and laying aside and often throwing away as gone and done and past and of no further use. My wife is not sentimental, and piles up much less because she just doesn't make emotional connections to stuff as quickly, and a good thing, too, or we'd be drowned in cellulose. She's been patient and supportive as I wrestle and occasionally weep over all these stories and glimpses of pasts that were and might have been.

More to do, indeed. But it was a strange and wonderful experience to get it managed and beaten down to where I have my parking place back under cover, not so much for no longer scraping my windshield, which I did for decades earlier in life, and did me no harm (wasn't great for the car, I'll grant you). It was part of the process of putting my own past in order, and looking towards whatever future it is I yet have to work with, in God's good time.

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he like many clergy owns too many books, and yes you can, I regret to report. Tell him about your books at knapsack77@gmail.com or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

Faith Works 1-9-21

Faith Works 1-9-21

Jeff Gill

Lord, grant us peace

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We've left some things behind in 2020, but political wrangling isn't one of them.

As the new year begins, we had a runoff election in Georgia and an inauguration for Chief Executive ahead in this first month, with politics aplenty. Not having a church coffee hour after worship might be a mercy right now for many faith communities.

Speaking out of a Christian perspective, there's a question that arises from time to time about "how much is too much" when it comes to political content of speaking or preaching or activity. Where are we over a line, theologically or even supposedly legally, with endorsement and advocacy? People of good conscience can disagree, even vigorously, on this subject.

What I find fascinating is how, as I turn to the New Testament writings that are my primary guide for "how should we then live," I note that Jesus takes relatively little note of the political leaders of his day. We all know "Render unto Caesar the things that are Caesar's, and unto God the things that are God's" showing it wasn't that Jesus wasn't aware of Julius or Augustus, carved on the coinage as they were. Herod, the Greater and his son Herod Antipas each have a role to play in the Gospel story.

But Jesus doesn't spend much or really any time preaching against them and their policies. He does address the abuses in and stemming from the Temple authorities, including making reference to the tax collectors, all of whom were seen as enemy collaborators, if you will. Jewish tools in the hands of the Romans, or those who used Roman power for their own ends as we see in the events of Passion week with the death of Jesus.

Still, there's a political context of a very particular sort inherent in the whole arc of the Gospels. But it's not politics as we tend to frame them. Where we see the world of faith in resistance to the world of power and privilege is most clear when the latter attempts to make claims over and above those of the eternal and everlasting.

An example at the outset: everyone would have known in Jesus's day about how Herod the Great, in his desperation to keep and control absolute power in Judea, killed not one but three of his sons. Augustus Caesar himself, the emperor who kept Herod on his throne as a distant subjected ruler, is said to have observed it was better to be Herod's pig than his son. (The quip is even more ironic in Greek, actually, with the words for pig and son sounding similar.)

So while Herod killed his sons to keep power for himself in Jerusalem, God sends a Son to offer the power of grace and love to work in the world. That would have been a parallel easily heard in that world whether you spoke Greek, Hebrew, or some barbaric outland tongue. A different approach to power.

Then there's the Prince of Peace. Of course, I'm talking about Augustus Caesar. Wait, you didn't think of him first? That's a part of what the victory of Christmas is all about: that we remember Jesus, not Caesar as "Prince of Peace."

Because for a ruler of Rome, that was a goal and aspiration: to be known as the source and vessel of the Pax Romana, along with the titles that being descended from Julius Caesar already got you, honorifics like "King of Kings," "Savior of the World," and yes, "Son of God." The Divine Julius was hailed after his 44 BC death in the Roman Senate at the hands of his peers, when a comet crossed the sky and his adopted son Octavian, soon to be renamed Augustus, declared that his father had been assumed into the heavens just as he had been adopted into the Caesar family. And if your father is divine, then it only stands to reason that you can be called "Son of God."

But what Augustus really craved was the acclamation of a now cowed Senate as "Prince of Peace." While some provincial inscriptions called him that, it's not clear the Roman Senate ever did.

We do, though. Well, not him. But we have just finished a season of adjusting our political and civic and cosmic understandings about whom God has sent, and for what reason. And many of us are still singing about a Prince of Peace who is not in any earthly palace, or buried in any royal tomb.

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he's still in Christmas mode. Tell him about your Christmastide thoughts at knapsack77@gmail.com or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

Notes from my Knapsack 12-24-20 & 1-7-21

Notes from my Knapsack 12-24-20

Jeff Gill

Lights of the season, shining bright

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One of the delightfully pragmatic parts of the whole Advent season leading into Christmas Day is the stringing of lights, inside and outside, around our homes and across the community.

The reality of the month between Thanksgiving and Christmas is that it's getting dark. Very, very dark. The winter solstice is the shortest day of the year, which means the longest night, and we get three or four indistinguishably at that length from Dec. 21 until, oh, about December the 25th, when a careful observer can first discern that, in fact, the days are starting to get longer — oh the joy!

And yes, speaking as a Christian, I am happy to admit there's no Biblical or mandatory connection in faith between Jesus being born in Bethlehem and the end of December. But there was a strategic decision early in the history of the church to tie the two together, and even if it doesn't quite work the same way in the global church of today for believers in Australia or South Africa, the idea is there.

For me, while I don't think I deal with seasonal affective disorder, I know some who do, and their plight is one we all share to some degree if not in scale: the lack of light and weight of darkness can put pressure on one's overall mood. Your spirits can get heavy and drag like chains across Scrooge's front porch with the gloom and shadow and dimness of early evenings and quickly descending nights.

But give me some brightly colored lights, strands of white ones along railings and around trees, or multi-hued garlands, glowing ornaments or pulsating ceramic decor, and my heart lifts. Light is good, and many small lights can be just as good; they can do in sum what the big one overhead is no longer taking care of, except for a few hours in the middle of the day. Come 3:00 or 3:30 pm, we need those light supplements, candles in windows, trees down Main & Broadway.

After Christmas, I am sorry the courthouse and so many homes give up the ghost, so to speak, so quickly. This is where the religious tradition of Christmastide might just be helpful, in faith and in practice, those "twelve days of Christmas" you might have sung about, from Dec. 25 to Epiphany on January 6. In some traditions, you hold off much of the Christmas stuff until at least Christmas Eve, and you carry on with trees and lights and song right through Jan. 6, with some going on until the older church feast of Candlemas, which you might know better as Groundhog Day, Feb. 2.

Whatever your preferred traditions or rituals, the fact is we need some supplemental light therapy of one sort or another for a month on either side of December 25. I'm not in favor of keeping the tree up year round, or leaving your lights in the shrubbery all the way until spring, which seems a bit lackadaisical, but shutting everything down Dec. 26 may be missing an opportunity. When all creation is making a head fake towards darkness, it's helpful to turn our hopes towards the light.

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he generally keeps his tree up until Jan. 6, but to be fair it's artificial. Tell him how you keep illumination going in the dark midwinter at knapsack77@gmail.com, or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

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Notes from my Knapsack 1-7-21

Jeff Gill

Making a list, still checking it twice

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Friends, I hope Saint Nicholas was good to you all, whether through doorstep delivery or down your chimney. Christmas came just in time, I'd have to say.

Now we enter 2021, for which we may have unreasonable hopes, and I say that not-un-optimistically. It's just that we can't expect too much from any one new year, and this one in particular.

As for the year past, which has surely had its share of postmortems even long before Dec. 31 . . .

My social media has made it clear that there are words and phrases that we're ready to set aside for a while, if not a very long time.

"Unprecedented" is high on that list. Yeah, pretty much everything about 2020 was unprecedented, but the unprecedentedness of the year got old in a hurry. At least in terms of calling things that . . . let's just leave it unsaid since it's already been said too much.

Along with unprecedented is its evil twin, the "new normal." Our new normals aren't normal, and in their newness are still not anywhere near what we can to get accustomed to as normal. So there's a groundswell to declare "new normal" as a proscribed category.

Here's a double barreled shot into oblivion: "going forward" and "until further notice." Going forward, we're postponing until further notice pretty much everything. So in that formulation, we are not going forward, and the further notice is likely to not come, as those postponing, aka canceling (let's come back to that one) are just hoping we will stop looking for any notice going forward and just forget the whole thing.

In terms of "postponing," we can't ban that word but it would be nice to use it appropriately. As in, when there's almost no chance it will be held later, or at least anytime short of a full year after originally scheduled, I don't think it's postponed, do you?

And these go back before COVID, but they're certainly been turbocharged by events of the last year, epidemiologically, and politically: "concerning" as in "I find thus and so very concerning," and also "disturbing." There's concern, and there's dislike or disapproval. Concerning, in the usages I keep hearing, is a term used to imply that the speaker refers to something that all right thinking people disapprove of, hence it's a matter of concern more than personal taste. Likewise when something is truly disturbing, it's likely to be a universal human response; anytime I hear in a political context a pundit talking about something being disturbing or concerning, I find myself immediately checking context. And questioning sincerity, just a bit. 

I just plain don't like "effectuate." Do I need to explain that one? No? Thank you!

But I don't know what we do about "virtual" or "remote." I think we're stuck with them, even though I know we're all tired of hearing them. How to use them accurately, in between pre-recorded and interactive, I'm not sure, but many virtual events I end up seeing are tapings from an earlier presentation, so I'm skeptical of their virtual-ness. Likewise an interactive online program where you can send in emails or type in chat boxes may or may not be interactive, depending on how well curated the feed is . . . but I will say that some online interactive programs I've participated in, when the chat function is used constructively, end up being more truly interactive between speaker and audience at large than in-person events where a few people ask long, rambling questions that are actually statements.

By the way, really do I read all my emails, and try to reply to each of them. Does that make this an interactive column? Stay tuned. 

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he really does read all the emails that come in. Tell him what makes an event online interactive to you at knapsack77@gmail.com, or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

Faith Works 12-19, 12-26, & 1-02-2021

Faith Works 12-19-20

Jeff Gill

A trip around the block (part three of a story in four parts)

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He knew his grandkids would be unhappy with him for doing this.

His neighbor, whom he hardly knew since she and her kids had moved in after the first of the year, and COVID had made a mess of neighborliness by the time it got warmer, was sitting in his truck.

She had her mask on, and he his, but she'd come over as he'd been backing out, asking for a ride to the drug store to get a prescription for her mother, who was living with her now along with the two small children. Tammy was her name, and she'd explained her car was at the shop, but a medication change for her mom's pacemaker prescription put her in a bind, and hey, he was wanting to get out anyhow, just to drive around the courthouse to see the lights.

So he put his mask on, let her in the truck after she ran back to her house to explain where she was going, and now they were almost there.

"I really, really appreciate this," Tammy said, staring through the windshield. It was hard to read her face what with the mask, but he could tell she sounded a mix of embarrassed and anxious.

"Honestly, I wanted to go somewhere, and you caught me just heading around the block and maybe downtown. Happy to do it." His reply was sincere, and she could tell it, and relaxed accordingly. 

"I'll just be a moment," she said as he pulled into a parking place at the pharmacy door. 

"Hey, if you need to pick up some other stuff, since we're out, feel free. I'm in no hurry."

"Thank you, so much. Is there anything I can get for you?"

"Nope," he smiled over his mask. "I'll just be out here enjoying my escape from the house."

"Okay, just a minute," and she clambered quickly out, closing the door and darting inside.

It was more than a minute, but not too long. She came out with a medication bag and a plastic bag with a few items weighing it down. "I got some candy for the kids, for their stockings Christmas Eve. You like chocolate?"

"Nah, I'm on a diet." He pulled back, looking over his shoulder, swinging around and then back into traffic. "Hope this helps your mom."

"It should." Without any other warning, Tammy started crying. "Oh, I am sorry to be a pain."

"Not at all."

"It's just, she says if I wasn't working from home, we'd probably have her in a nursing home, and she's right, but she gets so discouraged."

"She can't fend for herself, is that the problem?"

"That's right. And things are so… different. She just says about every day what's the point, she's just a burden."

They stopped at a light, then as he made the turn, he said "This is hard, what you kids have to deal with. When I was your age, it was different, but we had a clear enemy to fight, and a goal to reach, and just the newspaper and radio to sort out about it."

"You were in World War II?"

"I was. Just the last couple years of it. It was no walk in the park, but I was one of the lucky ones. Came back, got married, got a good job, bought this house, raised my kids, now my grandkids raise me, but…" He paused to make the last turn, then into her driveway, putting the truck into park.

"So now I can't do everything I could, but I'm blessed to be able to do more than some."

"Wow. You're like twenty years older than Mom, then."

"Aging is tricky. Anyhow, I'm just saying my generation gets a lot of praise, and we did our part, but now you're doing yours. I'm glad to help you out, even just a little. We got through ours, and you'll get through this."

"Thank you," she replied, "but I still worry." The bag from the drug store crinkled as she squeezed it between both hands. "I guess I shouldn't."

"Oh, you'll always worry. You have kids, don't you?" She laughed, with a hesitation, then more emphatically. "So you worry, but you hope. You have hope, right?"

She stopped laughing. "I don't know. I may not. Not much. Some."

"Look, that's what Christmas should help us with," he said to the windshield as much as to her. "We remember what got it started, a baby and a birth and a little town, and who we've celebrated it with, and how they're with us in the traditions and decorations and stories and songs. That's where my hope sits, up on the shelf with my grandma's manger scene. Hope that keeps an eye on me, showing me the way ahead." 

(to be continued)

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he usually writes some odd bit of fiction for the Christmas season. Tell him what you think should happen next at knapsack77@gmail.com, or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

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Faith Works 12-26-20

Jeff Gill

A trip around the block (part four of a story in four parts)

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His young neighbor got out of the truck. He had given her a ride to the drugstore, both of them wearing masks, not well acquainted having barely met this past year since she moved in.

It was January when she and her two kids had moved in, March the COVID business had made everyone careful. He was glad at his age he could still live on his own, drive, pick up his groceries in the "drive-up" stuff his adult granddaughter set up for him, and he was getting bored enough at home he was checking out channels on the cable the kids got hooked up him beyond the usual network fare he usually stuck to.

The truth was he'd just planned to go out for a drive around the courthouse to see the lights, since the roundabouts bothered him less than they did his son (to hear him talk about it when he visited), when Tammy from next door had showed up, nervous and anxious, needing help picking up a prescription for her mother who had been moved into her house somewhere in the last few months, he wasn't sure when.

They got back, the sun down and all the lights on, the chill in the air more distinct. They talked a bit in the cab of his pickup about Christmas and hope, then she thanked him for the fifteenth time, and got out. He was going to pull back, and then into his drive and the garage, but years of habit meant he sat and waited as she walked up to the door to go in, and . . . 

Which is when she slipped on some unseen patch of ice, and went down in a heap. Faster than he thought he still was able, he put the truck in park, turned off the engine, and swung out to walk carefully over to where she was slowly getting up from the stoop.

"Oh, that drip from the gutter put a slick spot on these steps, please be careful." She said it out of breath, getting up with a hand on the railing, her bags strewn around. He smiled at her warning.

"I will. You be careful getting up, young lady, and I'll grab your bags here." She opened the door, and he stepped gingerly across the shiny tread onto the shallow stoop, and into the front room.

The girl's mother was across the room, farthest from the door, with an oxygen tank next to her recliner, and a table with various tubes and bottles and remotes on the other side. She wore a nose tube thing, whatchacallit for oxygen, her eyes bright and wary as this new face entered the house. He reflexively reached up and tugged his mask up under his glasses, but they fogged up anyhow. Tammy took the bags.

"Mom, this is our neighbor I was telling you about, who gave me a ride to get your new pills."

"Ma'am, pleased to meet you, sorry I can't stay and be sociable." He stood uneasily at the door as Tammy disappeared into what he knew was the kitchen, from sixty years of living next door. "I need to stand here a bit, though, and get my glasses cleared before…"

"Before you go out and fall down and we call the squad for you?" she chuckled.

"Exactly."

A pause hung in the air, behind the frosted lens of his glasses. "Sorry I hadn't been able to come over and introduce myself."

"That's the kind of year it's been, don't apologize."

"Still feels odd, though. Anyhow, hope you have a happy Christmas: you've got a good daughter there looking out for you."

"Oh, they're all good to me. Falling apart, but they tend the pieces just fine. You get to see anyone for Christmas?"

"I've got adult grandkids who live locally; we're careful, but I'm keeping to myself mostly. They've shown me how to use my tablet to see 'em, but I generally like to talk and great-grandkids don't talk much. It's a mix."

"Great-grandkids, eh? Don't know that I'm likely to see them in my shape."

"Hmmm," he said, not having much to answer to that. "They'll hear about you, though. I guess we just try to leave a good impression behind."

"Thank you," she said.

"Sure. Um, I was going out anyhow."

"No, not for giving her a ride, though I appreciate that, too. I mean for not sugar-coating it. You're right, my great-grandkids will hear about me, won't they?"

He smiled over his mask. "One way or another." His glasses had cleared to where he could see her nodding vigorously.

"You've reminded me of what I can do, not told me what I might someday do. I can give them some good memories of Grandma." He nodded back.

Reaching for the door, he said "I'll be going, but hope to see you again."

"One way or another," she answered.

"Amen, and Merry Christmas," was his farewell out the door.

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he usually writes some odd bit of fiction for the Christmas season. Tell him what you think should happen next at knapsack77@gmail.com, or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

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Faith Works 1-2-21

Jeff Gill

An Advent postscript in Christmastide

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Christmas morning he'd gone out his front door to get his paper, and found a bag with ribbon around the top on the front porch.

There were some candy canes, in colors he didn't think were really candy canes, but might be worth trying, and a couple of foil wrapped Santa Clauses in chocolate.

There were also two packets of hot chocolate, which he wasn't sure needed milk or water, but he might just mix up with his coffee, half a packet at a time. His wife had always made fun of his habit of tending to use half of whatever was in an envelope of soup or spices or cocoa, but it went back to the Navy in the Pacific, and that's just who he was. Even if she usually threw out the clipped half packets as they piled up, but now they tended to stack up until his daughter came over and cleaned up the kitchen.

He liked to think he didn't give her too much to do when she did, but of course that had not happened this year except that trip over in July. There was still one adult grandchild in town (well, the next town over), but she kept out of his business unless asked. He tried not to ask too much. Mostly the cable and the tablet stuff; she's the one who showed him the Christmas log channel he'd come to like so much.

Her kids, the great-grandkids made him crafts and ornaments these last few years, but they hadn't done cards. At the bottom of the bag on the porch were two big sheets of paper, folded in half, done in a mix of marker and crayon with some faint pencil guidelines underneath in a more adult hand.

Setting the candy and packets of hot chocolate on the dinette table in the kitchen, he went back out to his chair, turned on the lamp, and held up the two cards.

They were brightly colored — one had a rainbow on it, in fact — and both said "Thank you" and "Merry Christmas" on them either in front or on the inside. That's where the pencil lines were most clearly at work below the heavy crosshatching of color.

One, with the rainbow, was definitely a tree, with a big yellow five pointed star at the top, and the rainbow arched from (or to) the star, going off the page in a way that told him someone had to scrub the table where the artwork was done.

The other card he was less sure of, but after some scrutiny, and grandparently intuition, he decided it was a manger with a baby. It could have been a sleigh, or it might have started as a sleigh which turned into a manger rather than wedge in some reindeer. There was something of both vessels in the reddish-brown oblong, and either a gift-bearing saint or a child with a halo atop it. Either way, he thought. Either way. A gift and a blessing, that's what Christmas is.

Inside, the guessing was even more challenging. Could be wise men and camels, or possibly a family view of mom, two kids, and grandma in her recliner. You could see it either way in the one card.

The other card, inside, was shockingly easy to recognize. It was his house, his truck, and him, cap and glasses and old jacket. "Must be the older one of the two" he thought, admiring the work clearly done from the window on the end, but capturing his home from the front even so. He got up and crossed the living room and dining room to the far window, looking towards their house. 

Sure enough, through the frosty coating, there was a child with two hands pressed flat against the glass, a nose print in the middle, then a frantic wave. He waved back, and then the shadowy figure vanished back into the house.

Heading back around to the kitchen, he set the two cards on the mantlepiece on either side of the manger, open and propped in place with camels and sheep. Grabbing the bag with the ribbon he'd opened, there was another note at the bottom, no crayon or colors, just handwriting.

"Thank you for the reminder. Spent last night making some good memories with my grandkids. See you one way or another, after the vaccine or in God's good time."

We shall see, he thought. We shall wait, and see.

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and preacher in central Ohio; he is as curious as anyone about what the new year might bring. Tell him what you think is ahead for us all at knapsack77@gmail.com, or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

Commencement Day as it were: Dec. 12, 2020