Newark Central – World Communion Sunday 2012
Isaiah 28:  23-29, John 12: 20-26
"The Baker's Lament" presented by Dennis Kohler
So,  where were you at 4:30 am?
I  was where I always am. You know where the baker has to be, don't you?
This  is not a complaint. A baker's life is a good life. My father was a bricklayer,  and his father was a farmer. Their lives were up with the sun, and down with  it, but their fortunes were just as up and down. The frost or the rain or the  economy could cut them off or build them up, and just as quickly bring them  down.
Me,  I bake the bread. People eat bread in good times and in bad; they may want a  wedding cake once in their lives, and some cookies for Christmas, but week in  and week out, they need bread, and I bake it for them.
In  return for the stability of my livelihood, I don't get up with the sun, I get  ahead of it. The sun rises to see me already covered in flour and half done  with filling the vats with dough to set and rise in the room by the ovens. And  I'm home well before dinner, unless there's one of those cakes to be made . . .  but that pays for the extras, so no one minds. I see the dinner table with my  family more than my father ever did, or his.
You  could call it cleaner work, as well, although it seems like I'm always washing  my hands. I'm in dough up to my elbows as often as not, and moving from the  rolls to the doughnuts to the loaves, it's all fresh and sweet. Some people  don't like the smell of yeast at work, but I remember grandfather's barns, and  helping shovel out from around the cows: give me the bakery any day.
And  I do still smell it. Some people say the scent vanishes from over-exposure, but  I've never found it to be so. Fresh bread baking is my best advertisement, and  noses are my billboards, but I get the first sniff. You learn, you train your  nose like you would your fingers on a piano or your eyes on sentry duty . . .  the faint tinge of too much crust, edging up to overdone; yeast distinct from  mold, always a hazard; the richness of bread not quite ready to be removed from  the oven, but moments before you might smell something burnt if you waited a  touch too long.
[sniffs  the air, smiles, lets everyone imagine the scent]
But  baking the bread is nearly the last part of what I do. It all starts with the  flour. You know, even the Bible knows that you have to have your flour ground  just right, not too fine, not too rough. Isaiah 28:28! 
You  seem a bit surprised, as if I wouldn't know the Good Book well enough to quote  it for you?
It's  true, I'm rarely in church. Someone has to bake the bread, and I assure you I  haven't been sleeping in and skipping services. I'm not one of those who say  "Oh, I can worship God just as well out in nature, like the fourteenth fairway!"  But of necessity, my work table and my sales counter have become my communion  tables. If this is where I have to be, to feed my family and carry out what I  perceive to be my own calling, then I need to find my own worship in this  space.
So  Isaiah and Judges and Ecclesiastes know something of threshing and winnowing  and grinding. To get the goodness of the earth into a loaf of bread hasn't  changed as much as you might think, no matter how many machines and engines we  might have placed in the middle of the process. The farmer tends the grain, and  it grows as God sends; after the harvest, the grain comes through the miller to  me, and it flourishes as much as I'm willing to work. I can't work hard enough  to make grain grow out of season, so I let God do his part and am thankful . .  . and my prayers here in the bakery won't make loaves hop on their own out of  the oven. God trusts me to do my part, as well, and I know how many depend on  me to do it. The mixing and the kneading and the punching down and the kneading  and the rolling and proofing and the baking and the . . . well, I don't mean to  imply my work is harder than God's. But I do my part.
And  God's part . . . yes, there is growth. And there is death. And there is new  life that comes as if out of the fire, transformed and reborn. It's right there  in John's Gospel: "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls  into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much  fruit." My days begin alone, and in the dark, but the ovens are lit, the day  breaks, and the smell of bread brings people to my shop. The seed is scattered,  but the harvest comes in. The bread is baked, but it must be broken for anyone  to eat.
There  have been moments in my life, and I daresay in yours, that I would have  preserved, untouched. [Picks up loaf of bread from table.] There are losses  that hurt so much that you could almost wish you'd never seen the days that led  to goodbye. There are times when you have to get up the next day, and come to  the shop, and you think . . . why bother? Why must we scatter, and lose, and  break? [Breaks the loaf, with half in each hand.]
Except,  the perfect loaf on the shelf? It's made of wax and papier-mache. It isn't  real, and can't feed anyone, hungry child or indifferent customer. [Sets down  broken loaf.] A loaf, so well made you want to keep it on display, for pride  and personal satisfaction? It will rot. And given enough time? Will become a  thing of horror . . . plus, the health department would shut you down. "Sir,  you do know that your display is filled with moldering, decaying lumps of  bread?" And will you answer "Yes, but they were perfect, weren't they?" No. If  they're perfect, all the more reason to break them, and slice them, and share  them, and see them gone.
Because,  after all, the next line after Jesus tells us about how the grain of wheat must  fall into the ground and die? "Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever  hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life." [Picks up broken  loaf again.]
This  way, I have bread that lives on. [Holds up halves.] It gets eaten, and becomes  part of those who enjoy it, and strengthens them to go out and love and work  and care and try. And love. You can't put the loaf back together again, but it  becomes whole and everlasting when the memory of a good meal and the meaning of  the time spent around that table goes into those lives. [Sets halves down  again.] And that love.
And  those lives are what God uses to make something eternal, something everlasting.  Our lives, your lives, my life. I may only make it to church for Christmas Eve  and Maundy Thursday, smelling of dough and toast and a bit of icing behind my  ear, but I know enough of God's plan for this world to know this: that for all  the reaping and grinding and rolling and baking we might go through, we are part  of the recipe. We ourselves are invited to be fed by feeding others. Our  brokenness can help make others whole. Our hunger for grace can feed others  with the Bread of Life.
Me,  I've got to go make the doughnuts. Cream filled, the kids love those.
[ten  minutes]