Thursday, October 19, 2017

Notes from my Knapsack - undated

Notes from my Knapsack – Granville Sentinel

Jeff Gill

 

Living in a Dodgeball World

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Today, I'm tall, but years ago, I wasn't.

 

What I remember vividly is being that kid in grade school who did not get the President's patch for physical fitness, couldn't do a single sit up, and was quite clumsy in the gym.

 

I dreaded the gym through elementary school. When it was the auditorium, and we learned songs there and put on shows for parents or of an evening there was a book fair inside it, I loved the space as I loved much of Northview Elementary -- but when it was "the gym" I did not love it at all. Mostly, because of dodgeball.

 

Ah ha, I can hear some of you say. One of those kids. Yep, that was me. And that me is still in here, nudging me today when the right occasion wakes that kid up.

 

There was the agonizing process of getting picked. Certain fine young specimens always got tapped for team captain, and they were the ones you would try to think "do I want to be on their team, so they aren't taking aim at me?" You'd curry favor in those futile juvenile ways, and at times it would work and then the gym teacher would announce a switch and the humiliation was all for naught.

 

Some of you may have fond recollections of catching a ball on the bounce, easily swiveling and flinging a well-aimed ball on the turn, neatly tagging out some opposing player. God bless your happy memories. I recall strategizing to skulk along a wall, skittering along the baseline, sliding behind protruding radiators that gave a narrow angle of protection, trying to hide behind other fellow victims, knowing you were just putting off the stinging moment of reckoning when your side was down to a few and the well aimed shot would take you off your feet.

 

I hated dodgeball. It seemed like we played it at least once a week for years. Pain and humiliation, carefully inflicted shot by shot.

 

Now, I'm well over six feet, have been hit and hit back, enlisted in the Marines and ministered in the inner city and have faced carjackings and stick-ups and pool cue waving drunks in vacant lots and lived through it. But I still hate the memory of dodgeball most of all.

 

I don't want to live in Dodgeball World. I loathe the idea that our public discourse is becoming an arena of the carefully aimed shot, the intentionally targeted smack of inflicted pain, dismissing an opponent to their bench with a gleeful chortle. We're retreating back to a grade school level of picking off the "other" team one thrown red-hot ball after another.

 

I don't want us to be a Dodgeball Village. Picking sides is rarely a community building experience to start with, and working together is surely not one of the morals of dodgeball, whatever beknighted lessons our gym teacher thought he was imparting. Picking off the slow, then the awkward, then focusing down to eliminating your most agile opposition: there are fields of endeavor where those are useful skills, but building the Beloved Community is not one of them.

 

Just remember, when someone on the other side is in your sights, and you feel precisely positioned and ideally prepared to throw a stinging barb to hit them right where it hurts, that there is pain that passes but there is hurt that lasts a long, long time. Some shots aren't worth taking, and some games need a new set of rules to even be worth playing.

 

And some games aren't worth winning. I can't even tell you who won at dodgeball all those years ago in gym, but I remember the hurt, and the pleasure others took in inflicting it, all too well.

 

 

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and pastor in Licking County, and he's been at a few public forums recently that felt like dodgeball games. Tell him about the games that taught you how to live a better life at knapsack77@gmail.com, or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.

Monday, October 16, 2017

Faith Works 10-21-17

Faith Works 10-21-17

Jeff Gill

 

Donor fatigue is real, and an illusion (it's both)

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Have you gotten one of those letters in the mail?

 

Did you find a message in your email with links to videos, images, and a "how to donate" button?

 

Are you watching television or scrolling online and brought to a halt by some appeal or pitch or program about a cause you believe in, or think you should believe in a little bit more than you do?

 

It's that time of the year.

 

Heading into that grand stretch of months called "the holidays," from All Hallow's Eve to Thanksgiving to Christmas and New Year's, there's a mix of the end of the calendar year feelings with seasonal good will to make every non-profit and charitable cause and, in many cases, faith-based programs (including churches) to take the opportunity to reach out, and ask for your contributions.

 

On top of this annual custom, the recent string of natural disasters in the South and Caribbean has resulted in some extra telethons and text-based donation drives, which we've almost all been exposed to. Repeatedly!

 

Which then leads to a phenomenon known as "donor fatigue." It has some grounding in precedent and fact, where you can track the declining rate of giving and how repeated requests for aid can push those curves down more sharply.

 

Truth be told, though, this is a very generous country. It's how we roll. Some $380 BILLION in the last year's tally of charitable giving, individual gifts the overwhelming majority of those dollars, though foundations and grants total billions themselves.

 

What I think some of us get weary of is our own self-doubt, our own questioning of where we are and to whom we should be giving of our blessings. And I'd take that a step farther, and push us all to think about whether we're tired of thinking about where our gifts should go, or if it's repeated circuits around that track without ever quite passing a finish line that wear us down.

 

The requests, in a practical sense, will never end. But if we come to some settled conclusions about a) WHY we give, and b) how we want to give, and yes, c) how much we're going to give, we can reach a point of relative peace. Yes, the requests will still come in, but we won't wear ourselves out in second-guessing what we haven't quite gotten around to doing . . . and that's where I think the fatigue comes in.

 

I wish I could give more in some cases, to some places. But my wife and I have long had a practice of thinking through, planning for, and working out our giving patterns, starting with our basic commitment to our faith community (and yes, there's a template for that, which is a different column topic sometime again soon). Then we try to allocate what we can do with our time and talents, and there are certain purposes in the community we prioritize beyond that, and there we are.

 

It doesn't mean my heart strings are never tugged, or that we don't make financial gifts beyond what we planned at the start of a year, but there's a kind of whipsawing I see and hear in people's discussions about charitable giving that we just don't feel. Because we've thought through why we should give, how much we're going to commit to up front, and when and where we add to that as the year and its blessings pass in review.

 

To be perfectly blunt: what I fear triggers "donor fatigue" is actually "guilt fatigue." Guilt can spur a certain amount of generosity, but we all reach a point where we say "enough already." Guilt is no basis for giving.

 

Gratitude, on the other hand, often multiplies itself. Gratitude is nearly inexhaustible, and giving that is the result of grace (grace being a gift one receives undeserved, but still freely given regardless of whether we had it coming or not) is the visible form of the all-too-often invisible gratitude we want to feel, but so often can't quite put into words.

 

Giving speaks our gratitude in a language the universe can understand, that we can hear echo back and that might just catch the ears and attentions of others. When you know what it is you're thankful for, and why you want to respond, your giving becomes fairly straightforward.

 

Jeff Gill is a writer, storyteller, and pastor in Licking County. Tell him what causes or purposes you give to support at knapsack77@gmail.com, or follow @Knapsack on Twitter.